The Definition of Pointless

Pointless- Lacking point, direction, or meaning. Also known as
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Insomnia is a cruel, cruel mistress. My body aches, my mind is weary, and I desire sleep. Sadly, no sleep comes for me tonight. Nay! I will jot my thoughts down to paper (or in this case key board) in hopes of quelling the beast of racing thoughts within my mind!

You ever have a lot on your mind, but it’s all going so fast you can’t really get a single point to sit still long enough to focus on it. I’m like that right now. It’s almost like my attention is a narrow doorway and all the thoughts are trying to cram their way through this doorway. Since there is only so much room, they can’t make it through because they get stuck against each other and the door way. Now I’m forced to sit here and stare at this mass of idiocy struggling to get free because on the other side of this doorway is the precious sleep I desire.

So, what I’m gonna do is pull each of these little fellows blocking the door out and deal with them so I can get through. I’ll start with this nagging little fellow in the corner. What’s your name buddy? Motivation? I feel like I used to know you. That’s right you and I were best friends when I first came to college. Man you helped me get my apartment set up, introduced me to a few new people, got me working out regularly , and started helping me kick butt in school. What a shame we stopped talking. You were pretty cool. Tell you what. You give me a call in the morning and we’ll see if we can’t catch up on all the time we missed lately.

Ok now how about this little guy, Self obsession. Man you and I have always been tight. Remember when I was little and you used to fill my head with all these crazy thoughts about being a super hero and thinking I was so cool when I was really an overweight nerdy eighth grader. Man I don’t know why we ever stopped spending time together. I remember in high school when you had me convinced I was having problems no one else had and almost got me to do some really dumb things. Luckily, we made it through and now you can carry me along in conversations. Let’s face it, self absorption is funny enough to get me a few laughs. Just don’t try any of that whacky stuff you did back in the day.

Oh man, it’s depression. Uh, how’s it going pal. Long time no talk? Yeah I’ve been busy. Me and happiness have been chillin pretty regularly. What? Oh no, I didn’t mean to upset you. Stop crying. You know nothing will ever change the time we spent together. They were some pretty miserable times. Dry those beady little eyes of yours. I mean we’ve hung out some from time to time since I’ve been up here. Remember those few days You, Me, and loneliness spent hulled up in my room talking about all sorts of things like how terrible of a person I was. Let’s face it buddy, you and I are going to be together my whole life. I’m gonna have to learn to deal with you and you’re gonna have to face facts… I’m pretty content right now. We can’t hang out like we used to. Sorry buddy.

Self doubt is that you? I thought you were with depression. Why are …. No I don’t think I’m ugly now. No, I don’t think I’m fat, but could stand to lose a few pounds. Yes my friend’s are still enjoying my company. Could you be quiet for a bit. I mean you just keep telling me the same things over and over again. Like it was fine for a while but come on, get a new bit or something…. No I don’t think I’m going to drop out of college and get a job as a street performer! That is completely unrealistic! But good job on trying though.

Oh hey there geekdom! Yeah Sorry about the whole not getting time to show you off lately. It’s been hectic man. Don’t worry, you know we are going to be tight for the rest of my natural born life. My love for comic books lives and dies by you man. And as much as I love comics, you are going to be with me for ever.

Now let me pick these little things up here. There’s my love of rap music. What’s up G? Oh over there my love of poetry. Not looking forward to spending and entire class with you. Sense of humor. You’re so weird man. Hey there diet, still haven’t stuck to you yet. Oh there you are English essay. Promise I’ll get to work on you tomorrow.

Now I just need to roll this huge critter out of the way. Which on is this? Oh it’s my desire for a girlfriend. No don’t say anything. I’m not in the mood. I said hush. I wrote an entire blog about you the other day. That’s enough. No, I don’t want to talk about it right now. I’m fine, I just want to sleep. Ugh you are so pointlessly annoying. Just get! Go on I said move it!

Ugh! That was not a lot of fun. I have more fun on the john. At least then I feel like I accomplished something. I mean really What was the point of all this again? Was there one? Oh hey there Happiness. Haven’t seen you in a while. What? Why Yes I’d love to go to sleep. Thank you so much.